I have some awesome friends, the best being my wife, Tracy. Jen, Liam, Richard, Jim, and others too numerous to name, don’t think for a second you aren’t included in this too. So why have I been stuck on revisiting my past?
Maybe (probably, even) it’s the fact that it has been 20 years since I graduated high school. So, in that vain, I have been going back and trying to find friends who I would liked to have kept in touch with, but didn’t.
Most of these people readily responded, and we’ve struck up email conversations that have poven fruitful in finding out how people have gotten along in the 20 years since school. Some, though, haven’t, and that’s where I’m stuck. And I know that some of these people don’t know me anymore; but I can still want to be remembered like most humans would want to be. Or maybe most just don’t care. Or perhaps some feel I am stalking them, but really wasn’t intending to, with my scary memory that can recall with uncanny ability what someone was wearing on one day when I was 12 years old. I am weird that way, and have learned to live with it.
My wife, my sage and muse in life, made a meditative gesture with her fingers and said “let it go.” And to appease her, I said “yeah, okay.” With no real intent of doing so.
Until I thought deeper about it. And in true Buddhist fashion, finally understood that one doesn’t have to be talking about physical, inanimate things, when one talks about holding on to something… To “owning” something.
And so, I finally understand that Tracy is right. I should, must, and am letting it go.
Thank you, Tracy, for teaching me. Again.
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